My first blog of the year begins with a prayer, but not a religious one.
Instead, it’s a song I’ve been meditating on for the past few weeks.
I first heard “Benediction” at my yoga studio. It played toward the end of a 75-minute class with Farley, one of the many wonderful instructors at Union Yoga. By the time the song ended, we were ready for the final resting pose.
As I lay on my back, tears streamed down my face. It was hot yoga; I was already wet and sweaty, so I didn’t care.
I was as emotionally raw as the music.
As someone who is attuned to lyrics, I tried desperately to remember a short phrase from the song.
Is it war if you fight it?
Is it love when you don’t?
There is more when you let go
Of the fear that you can’t
I made a mental note to Google a line or two when I returned home to find the song title—three successive words would have likely accomplished it, but I couldn’t even retain that. The melody haunted me until I finally asked Farley about it at one of his classes. I relayed to him the quality of the singer’s voice and the gut-wrenching lyrics I could not remember.
Not much to go on, but we were optimistic the mystery would be solved by the end of his class … unfortunately not.
He must’ve changed the soundtrack that day.
As we burn in the fire
Slowly learning to breathe
Just keep calm in the falling
Always looking for an underneath
Just before the end of 2017, Farley kindly sent me his playlist as I had requested. Of the fourteen songs he provided, “Benediction” by Luke Sital-Singh was the last one I played, even though it was not the last one on the list.
Because all along, I was convinced it was a female voice I heard. I could not be more wrong.
It just goes to show the power of an intense yoga class to alter my senses!
This brings me to the new purpose for my music blogs this year. They will continue to showcase good tunes, but there will be an added objective—to highlight the connection of the song to my upcoming books, more specifically, to its main character Kate Hampton. I will also include passages of lyrics if they are meaningful to her story.
Imagine it’s a warning sign
I don’t wanna lose more time
Darling, don’t you close your eyes
Keep listening – are you listening?
I’m sorry we don’t have forever
Ooh… but come die with me
A Fragile Truce is book two in my trilogy which started with Stranger at Sunset. It’s the book I’ve been working on for some time.
Whether you’ve read Stranger at Sunset or not, you will acquire insight into Kate Hampton’s character by following my music blogs. Close friends and authors whom I trust know I’ve struggled with her story for various reasons. My song choices hint at her life because they bring me closer to her.
Some writers of fiction will relate to this strange relationship with their main characters. Though Kate is the product of my imagination, she lives inside my head and needs nurturing. She may embody the best qualities of a woman—sexy, intelligent, strong, and compassionate, but … she is also tragic, unpredictable, and duplicitous.
My Music Monday posts will focus on specific aspects of Kate, and you can find these clues in the lyrics, the song’s mood, or even by watching the video. They are all inspiring me to write her story.
I’ve already chosen the soundtrack for the entire year, so I hope you will join me in this writing journey.
In the meantime, close your eyes and listen to “Benediction.”
Perhaps you will shed a tear as well.